Hi I'm Erika :)
Im a senior in high school and im going to Florida Atlantic University next year!
"i can do anything through christ who strengthens me" ~Philippians 4:13
A post from my private blog:
I am tired of people thinking that i am okay. I have never been one to tell people how i really feel. whats really going on. whats really deep down bothering me. its just who i am. theres something about other people knowing that im upset that makes me feel vulnerable and weak. I’d sometimes rather just have people think that i am okay. I have so much to be grateful for and i know that. i know that i am blessed in so many ways. But everytime i start to feel upset or lost i tell myself to stop being sad and just be grateful but sometimes its not enough. its harder than it seems to just push aside how you really feel. I guess no one will ever understand how hard it is to move to a 1000 miles away from your friends and come to a place where you have nothing. and no one. There is just a feeling inside of me like a huge part is missing. like a part of me was just ripped out and taken away from me. i feel lost. sometimes i dont know what to do with myself. some days im happy and fine and then some days i just feel like complete shit. i’ve never moved before. let alone to a place where i know absolutely no one and 14 hours away from all my friends. I’m going through a lot and no one may understand why or how i actually feel, but i cant help but feel like a huge part of my life is missing. my whole life is missing. adjusting isn’t as easy as it seems. I can’t always be happy and bubbly Erika. Not when inside i am truly upset and torn apart.